i have decided i'm not going to be sad anymore. it's just no fun and i don't feel like it. besides...i love the foursome too much and i can't hold in laughter when i'm with them because i'm "sad". so i've decided to change my attitude. yay. now, this doesn't mean that i will be miss sunshine, cause if you think that...DIE. i will have my occasionally sad spells but overall i will try and keep a smile because everything's not that bad and i love JESUS and i know that this is all part of that big plan for my life and obviously what i want is not part of the plan, but as the plan continues to unfold, what i want will be what the plan is, cause God is the bomb and he is making everything wondrous. and oo i have a song, i just realized. yay i love songs. but before i put that in i just want to say thanks laur for being my bud in the back of the gym and sitting on me like you did at clinic today and i just love you MWA. i love you guys. and i am just feeling lovely now after this post. HOORAY. if you're in a bad mood....bite me, cause i'm trying to stay happy for awhile and you can't stop me. HAH. damn, i love being i like this. i should try it more often. being depressed sucks. blog, i think you are my new therapist. even though you don't answer me or give me advice, it's good to tell you stuff and have you not be like your stupid and i like writing (or typing...whatever) how i feel cause i just do. anyway, this post went on WAY longer then i had planned it to so...song time:


Did you know when you go it's the perfect ending
To the bad day, i was just beginning
When you go all i know is
You're my favorite mistake

Well did you know
Could you tell
You were the only one
That I ever loved
When everything's so wrong

Did you see me walking by
Did it ever make you cry
You're my favorite mistake

- good old sheryl crow