well i'm feeling much better now, the beginning of this day was lovely, the middle sucked and i wanted to cry and jump out a window and now it's getting better. I've finished my secondary research which was way easier then expected, ha i love when that happens. Now i have to work on my journal which is going to be troublesome, but i think i can do it. I am most definately in love and it even grosses me out. I can't even talk about it, cause it's disgusting. Sarah is too and i'm glad, cause we're in this together. hahahha wow, that sounds weird, cause i actually don't think we're really in love. We just have like the hugest crush ever in the world and it's not even explainable, which is why i'm not going to try, well i have to be on my way now. Actually i want to tell about last night. So after a really good GIGA, me and sarah and bren stayed after and did some extra praying with Julie and got some words from and God and such, it was really cool. and God even told Julie to tell me something. It was like amazing i wanted to cry. So then the three of us, Bren, Sarah and me went to eat at the Springdale diner and it was sooo great. especially since it was bren's first time having a reuben bahhahaha. "tuna melt" we had some really good boy talks during that and sarah even ordered freedom toast BAHHAHAHAHA. i hate that, it sucks. who cares about the stupid french...gosh darn it. anyway, then we went and saw andrew play and it rocked the house and we stayed for 1.5 more bands that also rocked the house. Then we drove around for like 2 hours and looked for cops so Sarah's rader thing would beep "like none other" haha. It was cool but we never actually found any cops, which sucked. We did some drivebys and honked the horn for like 5 minutes straight, very satisfying, specially for bren, i mean for me. bahahah. then to selleck's woods where i cried and peed my pants cause i was so freakin' scared of the blue orbs, but we didn't see any, so it's ok. When we get some big strong guy to take us there then i won't be scared, but that might be for a while. so anyway that was last night. mwa mwa