dear Father, i need you

i'm getting kinda sad right now. i was talking to kendall about my grad. party and i realized that day and night was probably one of the best of my life so far. i haven't had that much fun in a loooong time, probably never. and thinking about it made me sad. then i started thinking about the cruise cause i was talking to jonny and charles. and i got even sadder. i miss so many of my good old times, thinking about them practically kills me. then i got sad again because i feel like i don't have a real good friend here. i have a lot of friends and people i've met, but i feel like they all have somone who is their own good friend who they can go off and then i'll just be left here alone and sad and crying. but hopefully that will work out. every new day on repeat helps a little. and i'm going home in 21 days and laura will be here to pick me up in 20 days so that's nice to think about and count down to. and i got a package today from mama. it was full of wondrous goodies like nutella and croissants which i enjoyed GREATLY today. well i'm done with this entry now i think.

"I want to fly higher, every new day again......healing hands of God have mercy on our unclean souls once again. Jesus Christ, light of the world burning bright within our hearts forever. Freedom means love without condition, without a beginning or an end. Here's my heart, let it be forever yours. Only you can make every new day seem so new." - FIF