"i've always thought of you as a son" "goodbye, son"

ohhh good time good times blubbering with armegeddon. thanks to kendall i have found the word blubbering to be very accurate in describing what i look and sound like while i'm watching the last 15 min of armegeddon. anyway, now that i've done that i don't actually feel any better, but ok. i saw abbie driving today. i am leaving on friday. today is monday. THREE more full days until i leave. oh my gosh, i cannot even handle it. i need to throw up or something. just thinking about it is killing me. last night i saw so many people for the last time in a long time. i saw trevor for the last time in a WHOLE YEAR. and then i saw jo, mark, dan, tom and shelli and other church people for the last time in like months. i really can't describe this feeling. i just feel so sick. and all this leaving business is not the only thing that's bothering me, as usual. i can never only have one problem in my life, it's just like a flood. well my parents just got home from dropping my bro off at camp yesterday, they stayed at a hotel last night in like penn. or something. i guess i'll go mope or something.