take me back
life is frustrating me so much right now. and not even for a good reason. it's just annoying the frickin' hell out of me. it's after midnight right now so my countdown can go down to TWO days before i am home!!! holla, so excited. i just really wish things would go my way for once. alright, that's enough. it will float on alright. i think i just adapted those words but whatever.
i am saddened slightly. no need to go into detail. let's just say it involves a boy. well anyway. i am going to be home in FIVE DAYS!!!! and since it is 8 minutes to midnight we can just say four days. i have some reading to do for my darn english class, so i'll see you fools lata. just remember
you never loved me anyway and i think it's time for you to just move on. that's alright, that's ok, i bet you never thought you'd hear me say, that i think it's time for you to find another dumb blonde, cause it's not me, no no! that lovely song by hoku just popped right into my head. luckily, it's not being sung to anyone in particular and i'm not blonde and never was to begin with. damn, i miss the days when listening to hoku was normal, like in 8th grade. today i hung posters with jenn all around town. it was a major workout especially since the weather decided it wanted to be summer again today. i am glad she was my partner for that cause we talked in british accents the whole time and you know how much i loooove to do that. well since the last time i wrote i'm probably feeling the same way, luckily at this VERY MOMENT i feel fine so it's ok. but in minutes everything could change...you never know with my sadness spells. NINE DAYS BABY.
i'm sad. i don't know why. i just get these random spells of depression. i feel like i have all this time, but it's not enough time to actually do anything, so i just sit around and feel sad and lonely and more depressed. it confuses me. working out for cheerleading wasn't very good. it made me feel distant from the team. but we still have practice later tonight so maybe that will be better. i also feel bad about myself cause i'm eating too much and not healthily. sucks. i just have to keep looking forward to going home in ELEVEN days!! i don't know what is up with me but i don't like it. and i'm pretty much over htb which is good (hopefully he doesn't read this anymore, but if he does then HEY HOMELESS TERRY BERNARD) i rarely think about him anymore, but sometimes when i do it makes me sad. then i get to thinking about other stuff and stupid boy stuff and it just makes me sadder. i feel icky. that's the only word i can think of to describe it. i just feel gross and like crying and throwing up all the grossness. i guess that's about all i have to say for now. oh and i miss my family and the good times with them. this past weekend they were all in NJ for my great aunt's 70th birthday party on the beach and all this crap. my mom called me to tell me all the funny happy things that happened to make me feel like i had been there but it just made me feel worse. i miss my graduation party so badly.
hi y'all. this weekend sarah came up to visit me and as a lovely surprise which i had completely no idea about she brought SUZ with her!!! so that was very exciting. last night we partied at alpha and that was kinda fun. actually it was a little boring but it got better. we saw mike mullaney cause he's pledging there. we also saw a lot of people like michael (my uncle's patient), michelle, katie, other michelle, zac, bess, andrew, abby, keith...just a lot a people i knew from my classes and stuff. so that was a little fun part. then we walked home barefoot in the rain and it was grreat...NOT. then today we went to walmart, shaws, pizza hut, rich's ice cream and then back here to hang out and watch tv and stuff. but now we're waking up for the keene music fest because it stopped raining and the sun came out and we're gonna go walk around town. then tonight we are going to partay with k-wal. bhaha. anyway, peace out foolios. see you in the am, most likely! mwa.
today i got up at 9:15, got all ready to go, ate breakfast and walked down the stairs. out the door, down the path, past the buildings, into Rhodes hall and into my sociology class. 10 min later i was outside again. my stinkin teacher didn't show up and it wasn't until now that i understand why. i just checked my email to find he sent us an email at 8:45 this morning saying we weren't having class, who checks their mail at 8:45 in the morning? not i. anyway, so now i'm annoyed cause i could've still been sleeping right now gosh darn it. but now i have class at 11, so there was no point.
yes that's right. i was in the mood to post. but now i forgot all the things i was thinking about posting. oh well. today so far i have eaten enough food to feed 5000. ooo the feeding of the 5000, what a great story. anyway. uh. yeah, i realize i have nothing to say. so here is a good song to fit my life right now...pretty much....
that is a description of me and what i will become. i eat way too much and i need to stop. i'm always hungry. i've met a skunk named ned. right now i'm in my dear good new friend nicki's room. she is having a fight with her friend who came to visit. also in here is one of my roomates leah, carolyn who lives in pondside and lauren who is their friend who came to visit. it's late and i have done no homework maybe it's because in the past 48 hours i have been at cheerleading practice for 12 hours. it's absolutely insane i can't even talk about it. or explain it or think about it. it makes me sick almost. but i feel sick right now cause i ate too much and nothing healthy. oh well. i must go but i love the blog. LOVE YOU LITTLE BLOGGIE FRIEND. pizounce. xo
i'm getting kinda sad right now. i was talking to kendall about my grad. party and i realized that day and night was probably one of the best of my life so far. i haven't had that much fun in a loooong time, probably never. and thinking about it made me sad. then i started thinking about the cruise cause i was talking to jonny and charles. and i got even sadder. i miss so many of my good old times, thinking about them practically kills me. then i got sad again because i feel like i don't have a real good friend here. i have a lot of friends and people i've met, but i feel like they all have somone who is their own good friend who they can go off and then i'll just be left here alone and sad and crying. but hopefully that will work out. every new day on repeat helps a little. and i'm going home in 21 days and laura will be here to pick me up in 20 days so that's nice to think about and count down to. and i got a package today from mama. it was full of wondrous goodies like nutella and croissants which i enjoyed GREATLY today. well i'm done with this entry now i think.
So sweet, so beautiful. And every day like a queen on her throne. Don't nobody knows how she feel. Aicha, lady one day you'll be real. She moves, she moves like a breeze. I swear I can't get her out of my dreams. To have her shining right here by my side, I'd sacrifice all the tears in my eyes. BOOHOOOHOOO. Aicha, Aicha, passing me by. There she go again. Aicha, Aicha, my, my, my. Wooooo. Aicha, Aicha, smile for me now. I don't know, I don't know. Aicha, in my life!
just saying hiya on this nice day. i just took a lovely nap. leah got her bigger screen tv here with dvd player so that's exciting. so i'm gonna be bringing up all my dvds soon holla. i go home in 22 days word. right now me and nicki and leah are going to eat lunch so peace out. cheerleading has been going better well i've only been to two practices. but yesterdays was better then the first. damn, i just realized it was pouring out. i don't want to walk to the dang dining hall that sucks. oh well. love you bloggie mwa.
hello kittens. stuff is going along just dandily, unfortunately it's back to classes tomorrow. this weekend was rather fun. i forget what happened though. sadly it did go bye pretty quick. but no worries, i am going home in 24 days!!! yay. until then i shall have fun here. last night i went to a party with leah, andrew, carolyn, rachel, nicki and mike. it was actually kinda fun and i made some new friends. then we came back to different rooms and just hung out for a while then i came home and rearranged all my drawers so i didn't go to bed till 3. but i got to sleep till like 12 so it was good. today was sooooo boring, all i did was read and crap. it was horrid. and i still have soo much more work to do. AND i didn't get dressed till 5 ahahah. back to work i go. or pretending to or something.
my intro to mass media teacher always says hiya to every single person when he calls attendance. it cracks me up cause i thought my grandpa was the only one who said that. today i had one class at 11 and then me, nicki and mike walked to friendlys for lunch, then stopped at the party barn where me and nicki bought fake cigarettes, then stopped at the ye homemade goodies shoppe or some weird name like that and bought fudge. then we stopped at some skate shops to see if i could get skater shoes unfortunately i was disappointed to find there weren't really any to my liking. oh well we might go to pac sun tonight to look some more. right i think i am going to take a nap though. peace.
ok this is how out of shape and crappy i am. on monday i did 50 situps and still today i am soooo much pain. i can't laugh, i can't stretch, i can't even move without my stomach muscles murdering themselves. it's almost unbearable. i have to admit, it's sometimes a good pain though. working out really makes those endorphins, looks like i learned something actually useful from legally blonde. today i was positively happy all day. now if i can just completely settle this whole dropping theatre course picking up fundamentals of speech course my life would be sooo good. i would feel no stress what so ever. well until i started have to do work. which i already have, but it hasn't been that bad yet. anyway. tonight i went to town with nicki, leah, carolyn and cassie, nicki's roomate. it was stupid cause we didn't get to do anything cause cassie, the one who has the car, was in a bad mood. but i got some food and soymilk and cereal so that's good. friday i only have one class, it rocks so much. cause my sociology teacher has to take his wife to the dentist, so he cancelled class. how cool is that? yeah. and i don't have english on fridays which makes my week amazing cause english is a sucky sucky class. and i thought one guy in it was hott till he got up and i realized he was a midget, it was very disappointing. very very. well i'm off to bed, cause i've been reading about bio and it made me so tired cause it was soo boring. peace out girl scout.
