this is a wang, a what, a wang, a what, a wang OH A WANG!!! i love those times and i miss those times and these times suck. oh darn

right now the only thing that could make me happy would be a big field. with ponies and lambs. and butterflies. and the dog from babe, pig in the city, that almost dies. and babe himself actually. and maybe hearing the sound of music would make me happy as well. i think what would also make me happy would be being Sarah in the newsies, which i am close to being already since we do have the same name, and making out with christian bale. oh well. that day will never come.

i feel like just being reallly random and talking about nothing. but i don't want to bore you people. but i'm in that kind of reflective, sad mood. the kind of mood where i think about when my grandma could walk and we used to sneak up the back way to friendly's and i would eat a conehead ice cream and not tell my mom. the kind of mood where i remember going to camp in mount kisco and practically living with my grandparents, and drinking dimetapp. and sucking my fingers. and getting bribed to go to camp from my grandma. and having back parties at their condo. and picking pussy willows with my grandpa. and learning to ride my bike with my aunt and pat. and singing into the lighter in the car of my aunt's mitsubishi twin turbo. when i couldn't find clothes that fit me. when my aunt and her old bf todd and kay kay and her nieces and me went to play at the discovery zone and went bowling till midnight and i sat in the front seat of the suburban with my aunt and ate healthfood and listened to i swear. when me and chrissie used to make sound of music videos and have adventures. when my grandma could drive. when she bought me the coolest stuff. when i accidentally licked my brother's head. when there was a restaurant called roy rogers, or the cracker barrel or something like the round house or somehting? no that was a show i think. when i used to go to chuck e. cheese's, quite possibly the best restaurant ever. when we went to the rocking horse ranch. when me and my aunt rented like 10 movies from blockbuster and watched one. when we went to pat's house and his dog stole my bagel out of my pocket and i cried and we went to stew leonards. when i used to have camp at my grandpa's health club and we played with the parachute, that was the best. and i used to eat slushies. and everyone was like your vincent's granddaughter, he rocks. when he had to go away and we visited him and he cried and my mom cried and this kid who i thought was hott at the time threw a football at my dad's head, but i was only 9 then, so who knows what my hott standards were. when i used to have lunch bunch with doctor lev. when me and celia did fun stuff and me and katy went to her dad's house and stuck our heads out the window while it was hailing. when i would go to katy's like everyday and have the greatest times ever. when i was jealous of suzanna and amy. when we lived in mount vernon. when we lived in danbury. when that guy let me paint his door. when my mom would walk to come pick me up from school. when i used to know a kid named maurice, who i called maurice the piece of grease. when i went to disney world. when i had a sleepover with kaitlin foshay, nelly and ceceila francisco and kaitlin wet the bed and i accidentally told someone and she hated me for the rest of my life. that sleepover was also like my 8th birthday party, when i had a pinyata? is that how u spell it? when we danced around the room and sang to doug. when i didn't go to bed at 2 in the morning. when i was afraid to sleep over people's houses. when a tree fell on my house. when my best friend was kathy. when those spanish people named nanny and hairo babysat me. when i wore my bathing suit backwards. when i had kesi as a teacher. when i had miss troncone as a teacher before she was mrs. torre and i had mrs. wetter and ms. teare, who went on a saabaticle so i had mrs. richmond and alanna made her cry. when i went to mrs. dadick's room for science. when j.j. had a rat tail. when i called cara delany, cara marie. when i used to have crushes on people like john allen and mike costa...

i could go on forever. but i think i've gone on long enough. goodnight. good morning, whatever.