sometimes i think that all computers around the world have this like evil bond of hatred towards me and all they want to do is make me miserable and annoyed and most of the time it works. so anyway, since the upstairs computer is big a piece of crap i no longer use it and i use my dad's downstairs, but today it said to me "Sarah, i hate you soo much and all along i have been keeping it in and stuff, but i can't anymore. i'll admit i'm a member of the CAS (computers against Sarah) organization and can't hold it back anymore. today i am going to break on you and there is nothing more you can do it about. i'm sorry....wait i'm not sorry. i'm an evil computer put on this earth to destroy your happiness...oh whatever. see ya." yes, the computer came out and said that to me. and i listened thoughtfully and was like "whatever, jerk." and tried to go online, but ohhhhh nooooo mr. downstairs computer was not lying. so the ichat and the internet broke and i have spent all afternoon moping and be lazy and watching disney waiting for it to fix itself, until finally. i got all courage up, went upstairs and unplugged every last plug of out of the cable modem, i showed that stupid white box who's boss. next thing i knew i'm checking my mail and bloggin my little baby. anyway, so now i'm happy, although i have not yet checked to see if ichat works, but this is good enough for now. this weekend was great nana w's funeral. it was sad, but i'm glad she's not suffering anymore and i did get to have a fun time in the hotel with like my whole family staying there. there is never been a time that that many people from my family have stayed in the same hotel on the same floor walking distance from each other. so yes that was fun. and that's about it for now. i lost my 250 dollar bonus for missing today of work, but then karyn told me oh lookie i already lost it like 2 weeks ago when i didn't come to this saturday orientation crap. so whatever, i guess i deserved it? no. shutup. alright, time to check if my genius moves have allowed the ichat to work. SCREW U, MR COMPUTER. DIEEEE. mwa mwa.

hello all. i am tres bored, and i want some breakfast of eggs, but my daddy will not make me any at the moment. today i have to go to a baptism and i really wanted to go to the outback tonight with Sarah, but i do not know if i will be returning in time. darn. last night at BR me and Sarah were lucky enough to come at the time when the pb and chocolate tub was just about done so Orillio gave it to us and we ate it all sooo good. yum yum yum. and then these ghetto chicks came in and they were like OHHH orillo, eric blah blah blah. and me and sarah were like leave. but then we found out one of the girls was orillio's sister we think, cause she said something about mommy. and the other girl was just some grossly skinny, flat stomached, weirdo looking fool. so whatever. they still like us better.... alright well. i must be on my way. toodles mwa mwa.

holla. i have to admit the christina stripped cd is really really really good. i extremely dislike christina herself, as a person. but her music ohhh it's just so beautiful. i have not found one song on this cd that i don't like yet. well anyway, the girl's in my group have come to accept that i'm obsessed with the song fighter and i'm just never gonna stop listening to it, cause they pretty much sing along with me now. hahah. camp is going good, i'd much rather be like freezing cold all day, but i can't say that i'm not having fun, because camp really is fun and i'm glad i did it again. i'm also glad i get to drive the big boat, because it's a ton of fun, i love it. i'm so glad today is friday though, i need a break. and i hope it cools down a little next week, that sure would be a blessing. CORAL IS HERE!! mwa mwa. peace dawgs.

p.s. i love jessica ortega and her tacos, holla gina. our taco songs rock hahaha. ain't no hill high enough, ain't no pool deep enough, ain't no boy tough enough to keep me from camp ic!!! word. haha.

ok this is weird. blogger has like redone everyone's blog and they're new and improved and such. but i'm not really a big fan, cause i hate change and it's kinda confusing. darn it. today was sweltering, i wanted to kill myself. the heat was so unbearable, i seriously did not know how much longer i was going to last, and the kids were ok, but sometimes they were annoying, but i love them. my favorite little cute kid was missing today though, but aww he's just so cute. little kids are just so cute, sorry i'll admit it. so now since there is no air conditioning in this room i once roasting like a marshmallow and all my clothes are sticking to me and it's really gross. i think i have to go pass out now, toodles. mwa mwa. p.s. i don't know. i thought i might have something interesting to say as a p.s. but i guess i was wrong.

hooooray. my rents let me drive the BIG car to babysit today and i get to drive it to work tomorrow, because my mom likes to take her car to work and my dad can use my gramp's car, cause they're in florida. and if not he can use his van, and i'm sooo excited, cause now i won't have to wait for anyone to pick me up, and i'll look all snazzy being way up high in my SUV haha, just kidding. it's kinda scary in that car, but i hate waiting so i'm glad i can drive. phewie. MWA.

thought i would forget, but i remember. i remember. i remember. holla. i have been listening to fighter constantly today, like non stop. the girls in my group were like shutup, please. but it was fun and i can't help it. that song is just so dang inspirational. what do you want me to do? today was so mad hott, it was like horrible, absolutely horrible. like in the 100's. freakin' me out man. but i've pretty much decided i like my group and the other counselor, Gina, is really cool. so it's all good. ok i'll tell about dixie chixies now. haha. so the ride there was good and when we got in we were all like pampered and stuff cause we had a suite. word. and so we got in and there were all these adults but they were nice and we found out the opening act was michelle branch, which was a nice surprise. i bought a cool, red, dixie chicks wife beater, but my mom shrunk it. darn her. whatev, i wasn't planning on wearing it too often anyway. and then the chicks came on with these horrible trashy outfits and ridiculous hairstyles, but they were soo wonderful and good. the singing i mean. so the concert went well, my mom let us drink wine. and we danced around and stuff in the back. and then they ended, but we were ready for the encore of sin wagon, but instead it was their tour song, "top of the world" and they played the freaky video that went with it. it was really scary and natalie kept turning into a man during it, an old man none the less. so we were really disappointed they didn't play sin wagon, but i knew that they couldn't end on a sad note. so just as the lights were going off, i was like get ready girls, and then the big old guitar started pumping and the song started and i screamed really loudly and ran around the whole box and clapped and jumped and sarah and chrissie eventually joined in haha. they couldn't hold back. so it was a lot of fun, and then we left and on the way home my dad made us laugh a whole lot and so did my mom. cause they're funny sometimes. yup. and then i went to sleep and slept for hours. and hours and hours. peace out foooools. mwa mwa.

first day of ic camp...interesting. i am with GMS which is the middle school girls...huge difference from my first graders last year, but i in many ways better. i still miss my kids though, but i'm trying to decide if i like big kids or little kids better. with the big kids it's soo easy, i don't have to swim with them, they don't need lessons, they can dress themselves, they can go to bathroom themselves, they can basically do everything themselves which is pretty cool. and they also get to go to the snack bar, which is a huge plus on my scale. oh yes, extra food....what? so that's good, but the little girls are so dang cute and stuff, oh i don't know. i feel so much more needed with the youngins u know? but today i basically tanned the whole day and read some other counselor's Maxim haha. not that bad of a magazine, if u skip the nudie pictures and read the articles. by the way today is still monday for me, u know? but it's after midnight so it's really tuesday, but whatev. mwa mwa. p.s. i went to chrissie's house tonight and we made taffy, def. a cool experience, but it was pretty gross. it didn't turn out that bad though, no i lied. it turned out horrible, we couldn't even get it off the wax paper. then sarah came over and we watched a guy thing....really dumb movie. not recommended. extremely predictable and stuff...u know. but glad i got it over with seeing it haha. ok i swear i'll tell bout my exciting dixie chicks concert thing another time. hugs and kisses mwa mwa.

hiya. i am at home. and i'm using my daddies comp cause the upstairs one sucks. and i'm using the "ichat" thing too since aim is broke. i hate it. but it's ok, it's better then nothing. i can't believe how lost i can be without my aim. it's quite sad. o well. tomorrow starts ic camp. woohoo. i want to tell about my great fun dixie chicks concert, but i don't have the energy. so i'l have to talk to y'all later. peace out mwa.

so i'm in nj. but i can't talk much, cause these keys make a lot of noise and my aunt and uncle are trying to go to sleep and i have to go back home to my "house" in nj. so i will type more when people are not trying to sleep. mwa mwa. peace out.

ok today sucks big time. it started off good then little by little i realized i must've done something very wrong for the day to suck so freakin' badly. first off, my whole gym locker was cleared out and everything i had in there is gone. i had like 3 pairs of sneakers, clothes, socks, like everything. my mom had a spaz when i told her and was like i ain't buying you new shoes so she called up the school and yelled at them for an hour. it was good, but i still have nothing. then i found out my lovely grade on my physics final. which none of you need to know, but it sucked a lot. like it's funny how bad i did. and i come home for happiness of the computer and the AIM is completely dead, i reinstalled it about 10 times and it still won't work and it's making me very very angry. i want to rip my hair out of my head and drive off a bridge and jump off a building and beat someone up and bash my computer with a bat and then throw it out the window and then run it over with a big tonka truck and then laugh an evil laugh and then get it and bash it on my head and then bash it on someone else's head and laugh my evil laugh and then go hunting with a big huge gun and shoot stuff....no animals.....but trees and stuff and maybe a rat. i'm not a big rat fan, so i don't care if one dies and i'll shoot the sky and the ground and a car and i'll put a bomb in a building and watch it blow up and laugh my evil laugh. i think i need a prayer. amen.

today: picked up Margie for brunch at about 1ish. went to stamford diner. u know those little like mini jukebox things that are in old diner booths, well they had them and ours happened to work. and it was soo much fun, except we played "because i got high" and it was really loud cause there was barely any volume control and so people were staring and parents were shaking their heads and we were a little embarresed. but it was great fun. totally. so then we stopped at lisa's to see her kitten. and it was soooooo cute, like i haven't seen something that cute in a long long time. and so we played with it and stuff and i didn't even get allergic and then we left for BR and got some of that and then we were headed home when we saw Woody on the post road so we u-turned and followed him for a really long time. it sure was a good chase and there were some times we were close to death, but well...that's just the way it is. then i dropped her home and met my mom and aunt in new canaan, chatted and did some jewelry shopping cause all the other freakin's stores i wanted to go to were closed bahh. and then i stopped at suzie/jo/mark's house and found my whole family there, as i had expected and then i finally came home ahh. and i think i'm gonna watch just married, when i can actually concentrate. hoooray. mwa mwa.

HEELLOO. last night: ok, after my LAST exam me and laura went to natalie's house and we picked out two movies on the way (just married and one hour photo) and then we got to her house and met brittany, britta and brennan, wow their names are like tongue twisters. so then we ordered sushi and the lady was like what road and i was like sunswyck and she was like S for sunshine or F for friendship, and i started cracking up, but tried to calm myself and said s for sun, so they finally delievered that like a YEAR later. so then we're sitting and eating and watching one hour photo which i do not recommend to anyone. it's mad freaky and really scary and ahhhaha, i can't even think about it and the ending sucks, it makes no sense. so then the little new 8th grade cheerleaders got there, oh btw this was a cheerleading party. and we started to watch just married but no one was paying attention, and so it was annoying. and we put on these coooool tattoos that said little phrases, u don't need to know what they said though. maybe u'll find out....someday. so then we went in the hottub, and i specifially asked to not be pushed in the pool, cause i had to go somewhere after, and oh yes alyssa did. sorry, no one pushes me in when i don't want to. so i untied her top and her bottoms and her whole bathing suit fell off and we all saw her butt haha. and she was so mad at me, but i'm kinda scared to see how she might get me back now. ahh. so then i left and went to my IC meeting, sucked. then i went home and picked up laura and we went to megan's party. and it was pretty boring so we left and went to dunkin' donuts and then we ate our foood next to bayly and george on this bench on the side of the road, which i admit was great fun. then they had to leave and we finished eating and then we went to find sarah, but she was no where in sight. so we went to BR, where we have the boys mega whipped as i have mentioned before. and they gave us free toys that u put on top of cakes and some free ice cream, but we felt bad so we gave them a dollar. and then we saw AJ and he's really hott. yes oh yes. and orillo? i can't spell his name let us come in the back door and go in the walk in freezer. holla. so we were there for like a half hour hahah. then we went back to megan's and hung out for a while, then we got bored again so me, sarah and laura left and find the sophs and nat ha in the dd parking lot said hi whatev. then we drove over the jess bump like 10 times ahahah back and forth and back and forth and then we did swervy stuff down the road and sarah and laura got bruises, but we had soooo much fun. then we did donuts in the hs parking lot. haha. then we were like oh what a night and we went home. and i went sleepy sleepy and sleeped in hoooorah. so here i am now. and i'm going out to breakfast or something with margie so buh bye.

infatuation:
n 1: foolish and usually extravagant passion or love or admiration 2: temporary love of an adolescent [syn: puppy love, calf love, crush]

this is the story of my life. this one word describes me. oh wait there might be one more.

ob·ses·sion:
n. 1. Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or an unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety.
2. A compulsive, often unreasonable idea or emotion.

ok so im ridiculous. so if anyone wants to know what sort of things go on in my life. just say those two words. and u'll be like OHHH, sarah. or if u'd rather look those words up in the dictionary to see my picture under examples of people who have these things: SARAH. that would be fine too. i can't write anymore, because if i do. i might just start saying things that shouldn't be said. only my nervous break down partner can understand such things. hehe. alright. i have to go. i wish i could hear guys talk. OH MEL, GIVE ME UR SECRET. electrocute me with a hairdryer while waxing my legs please. i'm begging you.

well. right after i posted that, chrissie called to see if i wanted to go out to lunch, what a miracle. and then sarah was amazingly done a moment after that. so we met chrissie at pcp. holla. i was soo hungry and it was soo good. and then chrissie went back to work, oh wait, not before she got stuck in the parking lot and hit a car. and had to have sarah get out for her. i'm telling you, that girl is helpless. but i love her. then me and sarah got ice cream, like we do EVERYDAY. then we were on our way home when we decided to go to g-ma and g-pa's house to look at the vid we'd made, but SOMEONE taped over it. but it's ok, no biggie. NOT. just kidding no i don't care that much. and then after watching that video that we were no longer on we went home. i forgot to tell you, i thought i could get into the house, but i couldn't. so i finally just had to give up and call gramps. and he was like here's the code, but i don't know where the key is. so we got in the garage, but couldn't get in the house. real dumb. and he just finally came home. then i went to sarah's and looked at her room and acted stupid. yay. then i came home. and tried to study. oh wait that's right now. i love you more then i did the week before i discovered.....nm. bye mwa.

hello. i am in the photo room. long time no see photo room. i have no way to get home and i only had one exam today waaaa. i just want to go home and eat food and sleep. my humanities video went tres well, it was ok. well i don't know. courtney is waiting with me, cause her mom isn't coming for a half hour. and she is correcting my writing. silly girl. i am waiting for sarah maddie, but she is in the dark room developing pictures for her family presents. another silly girl. i guess i am a silly girl as well because i'm sooo bored and hungry and i have a phonebook full of people i could call to pick me up, but i feel bad using them for rides and my grandma is at work and my grandpa is at a meeting and my mom is at work and my dad is probably at work, but the stupid man lost his cell phone so no one really knows much. hmm. courtney is sitting here reading over my shoulder, baha. she used the word delightful. HAHHA. hilarious. mr. cygan loves my humanitites journal, i'm the best journal maker EVER. alright i have to go or i'll just keep typing nonsense cause i do that when i'm bored and STUCK at school with no one to take me home. this sucks man. i can't even think about it cause it makes me so mad, how i could easily be home and stuff, arrrgh. peace out. mw amwa mwa mwa wa sjfjjfdhfklvs.

Walmart is the bomb. excuse me, walmart is da bomb. i just went there with Sarah and i bought this cool, cheer handkerchief. and they had the best mk and a clothes and this really cool skirt even fit me. i wanted it soo bad. so i'll have to save up my money. i love doing nothing. then we got ice cream yum yum. i think i should stop buying ice cream, but no. i cannot. toodles.

hello all. i just returned from my french final, a great big F. and then i worked on my humanities vid with Laura, our tape is over 30 min long. it's supposed to be like 10 min. crap. whatev. i'm sooo hungry right now and my mouth tastes like cardboard. maybe i should get some food. that might be a smart idea. yes. otis is curled up on the bed in a little ball, what a cute little muffin. AHA. mwa mwa.

when i have nothing to do, i blog. when i have too much to do, i blog. when i'm supposed to studying for my french final, i blog. ohhh what a life. so after the bbq, i moped around as usual. and then went to the beach with my family. but i sat on the lifeguard chair and tried to study the whole time. it was a little bit of an accomplishment. hooray for me. then i went to br and got my good old choc. and pb from ERIC and the other guy, forget his name. whatever, they're both pretty hott. well eric is hotter, meg. heh. what? i feel like making a weird choking sound, ready...arlghgdihtg. cooool. peace fools. oh and i saw meggie and artie there. they made fun of me, because they thought i was pretending to study, only i really had been. poo.

i think i post too much. i might need medicine.

father's day bbq, hooray what fun. oh i can't hold in the excitement. we've got the grandparents and the cuz over here, woohoo. here is how wonderfully exciting my family is: my dad is on the bbq, my grandma was falling asleep in front of the tv watching golf, my grandpa is outside sitting there doing nothing, my mom is like ranting and raving in the kitchen or something like that as she usally does, and my bro and cuz are glued to the car they are racing around a track on the tv. glorious. that word reminds me of a song we sang in church this morning. it's a song i like quite much. it made me went to dance around, but i restrained myself. maybe next time i'll dance up and down the aisle's with suzie's mom. radical.

"Jesus, your name is glorious, our prophet, priest and king. Jesus, your reigning over us and forevermore your praises we will sing!!!" hooray.

after watching annie on friday night, i'm in the mood to sing. so i'm listening to my annie soundtrack now. it's fabulous. today is father's day. yay daddy. and it's also study for french exam day. CRAP. that's a negative. well anyway, the sunday school teacher's bought pizza for us today and i picked it up. it was mad cool and yummy. i love cissy? is that how you spell it? Well aka Ciara's grandma and aunt. they rock the house. it's a hard knock life. annie outburst. mwa mwa. peace.

ok i just saw holes. it was fabulous. i'd heard parts of the book before, cause my family listened to it on tape once on a long driving trip, but i think i fell asleep during parts of it. so i kinda forgot stuff. so it was really good though and i was very impressed and i love shia. he's so dang cute. aw. o btw, u know that movies are good when they make me cry. and i cried. and so did my mom. and u can't always judge movies by her crying, cause she cries in like hallmark commercials, oh wait so do i. well anyway. are you ready for the monkey time?

morning sunshines. my family isn't as mad at me as they were before, so it's a happy day. but there are too many things going on, i'm all overwhelmed. my family and i are supposed to be going to see Holes today at 12:30, which is something i have been wanting to see, so i don't want to miss that. There is a pool party at the knudsen's today for the end of the school year and it's from 3:30 to 7 and my cousins recital tonight is at like 7, so we have to leave the party early to get there, because it's like on the other side of the country. and then, evan tells sarah he has a gig. i can't decide what i want to do. crap, now i look like sarah, not being able to make decisions. hah. sorry sarah. alright i've got to be on my way. mwa mwa.

i was just reading the blog me and nat made up. and i found an advertisement for a book that really entertained me. i think you guys could use the entertainment too. here is the ad, enjoy:

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HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE JOSIAH MILLER. I WUVVV YOU.

today was an eventful day. i will go over what happened. i went to school, failed my physics exam with a smile on my face and then continued on to math. this i was quite worried about, but it ended up being very easy and i think i may have done well. then i came home, got directions to Greenwich and went and picked up Laura. Then we proceeded to make our way to greenwich through some interesting traffic where there were school buses. and we made friends with kids on the back of the bus, good times. we made it greenwich, parked and started walking to our lunch destination. blah blah ate, interviewed yada yada. and we were looking all over for hotties to interview but there were none. then we saw some we had been eyeing and we decided to be brave and ask, but they were running bye and i was like "scuse me, would u mind stopping for an interview" and the kid said "uh maybe, we have to go, what's it for" and they just kept running. so we were like oh whatev. and kept walking. so we sat down on a bench and talked and stuff and then the boys came over and sat on another bench next door. and they were acting supid and immature so we were like they're def. younger then us, what were we thinking. but we interviewed them anyway and they had just finished 8th grade and it was a pretty bad interview. the kid had some kind of problem, so he couldn't stand still and he acting real stupid. but he was cute. for a little kid. so time passed we interviewed some others and then were like we can't stand it anymore so we drove to try and find some parks. found bruce park, sort of. and then we went to binney park in old greenwich where we met a lady named libby and her dog ruby. she gave us the best interview ever. by then we were soo tired and drove home in mad traffic and acted really weird and ghetto and got insane. like not even believebly insane. me and laura, i dont know. sometimes something just takes over our brains. so we got home and i became a grim reaper. who knows why my family keeps that grim reaping tool in our backyard...but it sure is fun to play with. so then we decided to see finding nemo with sarah and we picked her up and i said we should stop at jo's and wish him happy bday. so we did, but he wasn't home, disappointment. but he was at the Morgans, so we went there and found it was a joint party for mary and jo. so we said hello and happy bday and ended up staying and watching Annie. where i lost my voice from singing along. then we jumped in the car with like 5 min to spare and raced to BR (baskin robbins) where i have the boys whipped who worked there. so they gave us TWO free tubs of ice cream. they were almost empty, but it added up to like 20 scoops each and me and sarah got our chocolate and pb FREE. i'm sooo good at that. hah they love me. ohhh. sometimes i just love being a girl. so then we went back and finished watching Annie and eating tubs of ice cream and then we came home. where i got in trouble. i always do something wrong. i can't do things right. OH WHY. fine. whatever. now i'm mad. bye.
p.s. i want to get married. i'm in the mood for my wedding. hah. incase anyone was wondering. married people are so cute, especially when they have cute little kids that are normal and they are just oh so in love and the wife is short and the husband is tall. ohhhh my dream. to be short. no bren no . i lied. i don't want to be short, i am a tall, beautiful person. bahha. what i meant was. my dream is to be shorter then my husband. so all u short guys out there, forget it. AHHA. crackin' myself up again. oh wait, i forgot i was in a bad mood, and i'm self centered and all i think about is me me me, and i don't love my family and i'm the worst sister in the world. (mom) bye.

ok. this is what i have done today.
1. talked online
2. babysit
3. ate at duchess
4. ate at baskin robbins
5. came home
does anybody see study for physics and math exams on that list? no, i didn't think so. well i suck at life. word to my mama.

today sucks popsicles. i have my first two hardest exams tomorrow, physics and math. math i'm really worried about because i forget how to do everything and that could turn out to be a very bad problem. physics on the other hand, i don't care too much about. although i know it will be hard, i made up a theory. which is that i've never understood anything we've done in that class all year long, so why start now? i've maintained a b- average and the last test we took i got an 84, which is quite amazing considering other test grades. so i say to myself, whatev. i'll probably do bad, but i don't care. because physics is just that kind of class. oh btw, here is something funny mr. marrash said the other day: "Electrons are wee baby particles that whizz around in an atom..." thanks mr. marrash. i'm sorry that just cracked me up. everyday is an adventure in that class, an absolute adventure. seriously i really need to study. but i cannot visualize myself doing it and i have to babysit, which minuses time that i need to try and make myself study. and Sarah wants to go to Duchess tonight, cause we have no young life and so do i DUH, but look at me...i'm a mess. i'm dead. i'm dying. i asked christine dempsey when we got off the bus, if i stood in front of it would it hit me? who says that? me. that's how bad i am not wanting to have take exams tomorrow. i don't really want to die don't worry, i just want them to be over. what i really want actually is this. cause see i don't mind taking them, i mind studying. that's what i cannot do. so if i didn't have to study, i'd be overjoyed and happy. but i know that i have to study and i know it's the right thing to do. so i have to make myself do it. AH.

"In open fields of wild flowers, she breathes the air and flies away. She thanks her jesus for the daisies and the roses in no simple language. Someday she'll understand, the meaning of it all...the tears will fall down and she'll pray, 'I want to fall in love with you'..." -Love Song for a Savior, Jars of Clay

"They say that love can heal the broken. They say that hope can make you see. They say that faith can find a savior. If you would follow and believe with faith like a child." - Like a Child, Jars of Clay

religious debates are horrible. i hate them. i just wish i could be good at them. well i don't mind too much, cause i know that everything is part of God's plan, and i am doing the best i can. everything will work out eventually, if not know. wow it go so late so quick. i had my track dinner, tell u bout adventures later and i did inventory at the Rugged Bear with sarah. holla. gotta go finish debating. peace out. mwa.

yum, eating salad and watching taildaters, but i'm wishing it was dismissed, but this will have to do. holy crap, they just met and the girl totally came on to him and like made out with him and was then like are u scared?? frrreeeaakkk. ok i have to go watch sorry. peace out.

so we got our yearbooks today. no offense to the yearbook staff, but they suck. ok here are my reasons:
1) all the sports are crammed together in the front, not spread out in the book as usal
2) cheerleading does not even have a full page....what the hell is that about? we have half a hockey picture on our page. i am furious about this. and why don't we have a captain's corner? we have captains too, you know. and in case u were too dumb to realize, Laura Rosati and I are juniors, yes juniors, 11th graders, in other words we are NOT "seniors...leav[ing] the team this year..." as u so idiotically put us in the yearbook.
3) cheerleading is a winter AND fall sport, this means we go under both categories. this means we don't get some crap half page in the winter section with all pictures from the fall season, got it?
4) the best part about getting older is that your pictures slowly get a bit bigger each year, this year everyone's pics are the same size, except the seniors. hello, that's what's cool about being a junior, ur picture is bigger then the scrawny froshies and sophs. but nooo, nooo, noooo.
5) i was promised that a fabulous picture of Sarah holding me wearing our matching saved by the bell shirts would be blown up and placed in the red, white and blue section of the homecoming week. was it there? hmm, let's take a wild guess. no. ok not only was i promised though, but during the year a yearbook staffer, was like oh yes, it's huge, that picture oh my gosh. ya it's right there in the yearbook all blown up. was that just a complete lie? i'm sorry, i don't get it.
6) the senior superlatives and now and thens are completely like shrunken. u can't even see them. what? did we run out of room or something? i just don't freakin' get it. if anyone cares to explain, i'll be very greatful. thanks.
7) my last complaint, is not totally a complaint. it's actually a bit of a thankyou. no one can explain this phenomenon, but Ashleigh Bella is placed twice in the yearbook in the senior section. once under Ashleigh Bella (her real name) and once under Linda Pae. First of all, who the hell is Linda Pae? and why does she look exactly like Ashleigh, just posing a different way? ok, not only that, but they're little bio/dedication sections are completely different and she even signed her name Linda Pae for one part. i'm sorry, but she does not have a twin sister. something has gone completely and utterly wrong and i am tres confused. ok, so now that i've explained, i say thankyou for that, because that was quite possibly the funniest thing i have ever seen in my life. i saw it during lunch, where i basically threw up whatever i was trying to eat and then i laughed so hard i cried for maybe 10 minutes. seriously, u people have to see this. thankyou ashleigh/linda for making my yearbook experience an almost good one.

well with that put, i've got to get to work. mwa. peace out fools. and i love you. seriously i am going to cry soon, cause i'm thinking of all my graduating seniors, WAAA. i can't deal with this alright. i'm shouting out. i don't do this often, cause it's dumb. but i'm doing it. so deal.
SHOUT OUT TO MY GRADUATING SENIORS:
~Kendra (Kenny): ok, gym when i was a frosh. writing casey on my tummy. what? did i just say that outloud. i mean type it outloud...yes. well i'm gonna miss you. i loovvee you.
~Kaitlin: ok, no. cheerleading would never ever ever have been the same without you. who would've made me laugh like every five seconds. remember when u pulled me out of ur car by the ear? SPREW. i love you. soo much. please don't leave me.
~Chadae (Chadi): i read what u wrote in my yrbk, and ur gonna make me cry. i'll never ever forget our laughs and good times. it's not over till the fat lady sings, want me to sing? OH SUSHI. oh i love you. NYC?? holla. nice job running into the camera. i wuv you.
~Jessyca: Leslie Bian, u are mad hott. i love you so so sos much and i really don't want u to leave, cause cheer tryouts already sucked without you. u always crack me up. even when no one else laughs. btw, i'm feeling up to par are you? ges or jes, however one spells it. penis penis penis...umm enough of that. i love you and i can't take u leaving. WAAA. coming to visit u in cali.
~Meg: CAPTAIN, best one ever. singing in the car. i can't find my cat, meow rarar. dixie chicks. u are my role model. and i look up to you like none other, and remember u still owe me some lessons. baskin robbins. eric...what? i miss the saturn and i will miss you. i love you with a burning passion in my heart. cheerleading is dead without you. seriously dead. but i will try to keep it alive. i promise. mwa mwa. kisses forever. don't forget me and laura...visiting...boys...
~Claire: we are still having a sleepover i promise. this summer, def. we need it. kum by yah, this place sucks. u make me laugh all the time. what was that about a floppy disc? hugs and kisses, i love you. and will miss you no doubt.
~Dan: i've always loved you. and u know i love hanging out with you, so don't start mister. bru bru. going to the random stamford party with britta? weird. but i love you. soo much. and u've always always made me laugh. joe popular. aunt lou lou, we're still going there. i'm not joking. i will miss you like none other. remember bus rides in middle school. scary times. mwa mwa.
~Linda Pae: BAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAH
~Bren: what would i have done without you on my low self esteem goon days? ur list is hanging on my wall. OPIE. wow, he is my lover. wait, shouldn't he be dead? oh well. sorry caroline. the diner...the reuben or is it rubin? who knows. u liked though, right? GIGA will totally not be the same without you. you're such an inspiration. next pool party, we'll set up another run kenny into the pool type thing. i love you so much. please dont leave me.
~Andrew: thanks for always remembering my birthday. now that takes skill. definately. i love you and i'll miss you greatly, don't you worry. p.s. u owe me money.
~Sara: Speedy, what is up with the no track thing. do you know how much it sucked without you? well it did. i'm gonna miss you. don't forget our fun rat times. i love you. mwa mwa.
~Cassie: ok, how will cheerleading be dirty anymore without you? i'll have to start wearing no clothes to practice to take ur place. OUR homecoming dance was soo much better. i'm gonna miss you soo much, but hey, UCONN isn't that far away...here i come. partayyy. i love you mwa mwa.
~Ally:hi there mr. morning. we only became friends at the end of the year, but i love you none the less. gum chains are the coolest and so is NYC with you and me and everyone. please no more of that song. i love you and i'll miss you.
~Julia: oh my jules. u've always always always made me laugh. when u got austin powered in you know who's driveway. booty call. u've got to admit, he is mad hott though. remember driving to his house? ohhh i do. i'm a rat. but a rat that loves you and totally missed u at track this year. remember stealing his photo paper and exposing it, haha that was harsh. i love you soo much and i'll miss you very much. mwa mwa.

ok i have to stop now. tears will start flowing. no one even reads this, what am i thinking? mwa mwa.

too tired to go to sanctuary. sorry god. eating sushi from food for thought. yum. have so much work to do. crap.

hellodie. today was church. fun. then we had a church bbq. fun. but i left church early to go pick up savannah and ali at steph's house cause they wanted to come to church. fun. then i thought i'd take ali home but she came over to meet otis and then i straightened her hair and now she and willie are playing ps2. great fun. today i am supposed to be during work i'm sure. but i'm not. caues i'm lazy as usual. i seriously think i have a problem. no really. anyway. i need to eat some nutella, but my mom is here. she'll get mad. darn it. alright. time to do something else. mwa mwa.

ahhh, what a nice sleeping in day. last night, caroline, sarah and i went to friendly's....what? i swear i don't go there every night....what are u people talking about? it was pretty good. we had a new waiter named Ivan. he's from russia haha. Robert didn't even remember us, the butthead. and nicki, jim, efram and jose weren't there. it was also packed and they put us at a table, yes a table not a booth, in the corner by the freezer, it sucked. but then there was this mysterious light switch and i really wanted carolin to switch it, but she wouldn't, so i did and nothing happened. but it was cool anyway. today i slept till 11:30 and i don't know what i'm doing today. it's a draw between GIGA and family reunion kinda thing for my parents with this cute little friend of mine named Riley. hmm i can't decide. well anyway. mwa mwa. peace.

i just took a nice refreshing shower. it was great and i listened to what's ur problem, brian. got me kinda pumped. and i'm feeling a bit punky now, so i put in mxpx, good stuff. today we had an ice cream social at school, i had a nice bowl of chocolate ice cream, mmm mmm good. seniors got their yearbooks and i had a little peek. hehe, but we get ours monday. so it's friday and i'm happy, cause i always feel so carefree on fridays and i feel extra care free cause i have like zip homework, yay. tonight is bring a friend night at youth group. that means they might have a cool theme. i like when there are themes. my brother bought Queen's greatest hits, haha. and it's 3 cds long, it's crazy. queen rules. i think it's bout time i got myself some grub. talk to ya lata, blog. mwa mwa.

hiya. i feel like blogging, but i don't really have anything exciting or interesting to say. the people who work at duchess yelled at us tonight for putting our feet on the seats and being too loud or something. everytime i go there i hate it more and more. it's not cozy anymore. it makes me think of like being in a big steel room where everything echos. does steel echo? well u know what i mean. now if it was a big carpeted room or a big padded room that would be cozy and homey. wait, i think the padded room would just be for me. i like padded rooms, i really wanna go in one and bounce off walls and stuff. tomorrow is friday, yaya. i am excited, i like fridays much. i'm looking up pictures of pretty people and seeing if can make myself look like them. sorry i think i'm having a low self esteem day again....BREN i need you. i just don't understand how people get so beautiful. it angers me. brb. haha i can't believe i just typed that. i was gonna go look at another website before i published this post, but then i realized no one would know if i wasn't here the whole time, u know? so why say brb? besides that aim talk and it's tres dumb. ok i was thinking about that recent vanity fair mag cover. and it makes me hate the world. sorry back to my low self esteem. cause i mean there's like every beautiful person in the world on the cover. the top 4 are hilary duff, amanda bynes, mk and a and lindsay lohan or however u spell that. i can't remember who else is on it. anyway. AH. sorry. i need to stop. God made me beautiful and i am and that's it. thanks god, i love you. i can't post anymore cause i'm being dumb. i love you guys and my blog. and i'll see you later mwa mwa.

well there goes the blog again, deleting what i wrote. today were cheerleading tryouts, and woo hoo. i'm 99.9% sure i made it, cause there's basically only a .1% that i didn't because i've already been cheering for 3 seasons and dancers for 2, so whatev. tonight is senior club, yay and then DUCHESS. even though i throughly detest the place...but then i forgot we're going out for chinese before which means i won't be hungry for grilled cheese darn it. oh well. mwa mwa.

"But don’t fall in love. She’s a beauty. She’s one in a million girls, one in a million girl. Why would I lie, why would I lie? But don’t fall in love, 'cause if you do, you’ll find out she don’t love you. She’s one in a million girls, one in a million girl. Why would I lie, now why would I lie?" - The Tubes!! (holla 80's music)

AHHHHHHHHHH. I HAVE FINISHED MY PAPER. except i definitely came into school this morning FORTY minutes early. and i still didn't have time to finish my works cited, so i'm going to hand it in later, with my 2nd copy of the paper, which i forgot to print and be like OH DARN. i suddenly realized i forgot to staple it. and teachers will be like oh wondrous toodles. so anyway, i feel so freee and wonderful now, i have no cares....NOT. well almost no cares. i need to get myself some food. i'm sooo hungry. i had no breakfast, cause i didn't have time. WHOA. i just looked around the library and there was john hill looked puggish as usual and he was making these really really weird retard races at Brian Kelly brown hair. i was like WHAT THE HEEECK. HA. what a freak he is. BAH. alright time for my favorite peanut butter bar thing for breakfast, those things are sooo darn goood. we get our yearbooks tomorrow!!! hip hip SAWWWEET. peace out. MWA.

"two of us wearing raincoats, standing solo, in the sun. You and me chasing paper, getting nowhere, on our way back home. We're on our way home, we're on our way home, we're going home. You and I have memories longer than the road that stretches out ahead..." - The Beatles

ok i'm being really dumb. what time is it? ya, it's 12:33. and i am still up. i could easily go to bed, but i just don't feel like it. and tomorrow i have to wake up early and go to school and finish my freakin' paper, which is absolutely horrible. it really is just a really bad paper. i'm not kidding. i love meggie eisen-berkley. mwa mwa to her. i just felt like saying that, cause i was thinking of physics and of the hilarious test we took today that i completely failed, and how i wouldn't have made it through that class without her. well anyway. my mom says go to bed. night.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, EVAN'S SISTER MARY!!!! 8 IS THE BEST AGE, EVERRR.

peace fools, i'm going to bed.
p.s. i am writing this after midnight which is why i think it's still wednesday, but it's thursday now and mary's birthday was yesterday, june 4!! yay.

crap. i have to finish my paper, it's due tomorrow!!! and for the past half hour i have been looking at names for my children....again. i am soo obsessed with naming my kids already it's crazy. what's gonna happen when i'm actually pregnant? which won't be for another 9 years or so. when i'm about 26, holla. i need a few years to partay...just kidding. anyway, so today for about 4 hours sarah and i helped chrissie get ready for prom. it was sooo touching. i look over 40 pix of her....just a little photo happy. i'm gonna make an album. then me and sarah cried of post-prom depression/jealousy of people who are still having prom and we really wanted to get in our dresses and run around and go back to prom...but it's OVERRRR. too bad. now i have to get myself off aim and get to work...NOOWWW. mwa mwa

cheer practice was fantaboulous as usual NOT. i just made that word up. haha. it was ok. the dance part is fun, most other parts SUCK. anyway. i need to take a showie and do all my homework. because my birthday present to my mom is that i will go to bed early, besides the plate i made her at come out and clay! so now i'm off to do those things, when i finally get myself away from procrastination. CRAP. mwa mwa

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!!

heeeleloe. first i say hi to ali. haha. then i say. today was our first cheerleading clinic. WOOHOO. it was alright. we learned a madddd coool dance. that was the fun part. jumps as usual SUCKED. whoa. i'm doing a lot of caps tonight. anyway. so after clinic/practice, i came home tried to make some fake uncle ben's indian rice bowl crap. but there was all this weird stuff in it, like raisins and jalopenos. i can tell u, i'm not a fan of those haha. so i gave it to my daddie. then i made some RAMEN. ROCK THE HOUSE. ramen is sooo good. coincidentally sarah had ramen for dinner too. WORD. then me and sarah drove to fox lane schoools to see evan's geetar thingy something like jam out, i think. and it was really really cool. i'm so jealous we don't have stuff like that at our school, man. anyway, then we decided we were raising our kids somewhere around that area, so they could go to fox lane, cause it's soo cool there. it's like a college campus. no doubt. i wanna live on a horse farm. and ride horses. with my filthy rich husband and eight kids. SWEET. can't wait for that. so then we were like good job blah blah and we went home. oh no wait. do sarah and sarah ever go home right after stuff????? NO. duhhh we made our usual stop at baskin robbins and ERIC was working. he's damn fine. BAHHA. fine. what a funny way to describe someone. and i only got one scoop of ice cream. since i have been able to order my own ice cream, i have never ever gotten one scoop. it was scary. i gotta work. peace.

i am in the computer lab for humanitites. we are typing stuff up for our journals, hip hip hooray. laura is trying to read what i'm writing, but she is half blind. so in order to do this she must stick her whole head in front of my screen. but now she put her glasses on. so it's all good. mrs. shortliffe left the room to go get some sample journals and we're not really doing much in terms of work oh she's back. ok time to go to work. mwa mwa.

sometimes i want to strangle my blog. when it doesn't do what i want.

i just wrote all this like 20 min ago. but the stupid blog decided to break again. and it erased it. fool blog. anyway. it was saying that i was talking to ali benton. she is such a funny girl. we have this wonderful relationship where we ask each other really weird questions, but neither of us care, because our questions are all equally weird. and we go on secret missions and find out stuff for each other about boys. hehe. weirdos we are. it's great though. anyway. this friday, june 6. is national measuring day. everyone around the world has to measure themselves and find out how tall they are and then take a picture with a ruler or a measuring tape or something. well i'd best be going to bed. i wanted tonight to be an early night. i wanted to go to bed at 10, hmm. let's take a look at the clock over there....it's 11:31. poo. peace. goodnight to Alison S. Benton
p.s. don't forget NATIONAL MEASURING DAY!!

funniness:

"I got my cat moves
That so upsets them
Zippers and buttons
Fun to frustrate them
They get so angry
Like pouty children
Denied their candy
I laugh right at them

I know what boys like
I know what guys want
I know what boys like
Boys like, boys like me

I see you're sad now (I will let you)
Sorry I teased you (I will let you)
This time I mean it (I will let you)
Anything you want (You can trust me)
I really want to (You can trust me)
How would you like it? (You can trust me)

SUCKER! hmhmhm"

ah. don't u hate it when u supposedly do something, but u really didn't think u did and if u did it was just a huge mistake and it wasn't on purpose and u really thought what u were doing was just fine? and then ur parents are like blah blah u suck at life blah blah, ur banned from driving for the rest of the day? cause that's what just happened. i was backing out of church and i guess i did it kinda fast, i'll admit to that. but i did look and i saw no one, but supposedly my dad was backing up too and i almost hit him. "i was like an inch away from his bumper" says my mom. AHH. i didn't do it on purpose gosh. and so now i "don't deserve to have my liscense" and my dad is "sick and tired of this". but how can he be sick and tired of something that happened once like 5 minutes ago. u can only get sick and tired of something that keeps happening. i feel like crying and shouting haha i've never used the word shout before. i usually say yell, but whatev. i'm going to look in the thesaurus for another word for pissed. i am enraged, infuriated, and vexed. vexed doesn't really work i dont think, but it's a cool word. peace out.

"You’re an ocean, you’re an ocean, settle down, settle down, what’s the commotion? I’m an island, but you’re an ocean. It’s a stormy sea of love and emotion, you got me suspended motionless in time."