depressed a little

so yesterday was not good at all. i cried so much, but then i worked out later that night with my roomate and her friend and took a shower and felt soo much better like it was insane. i had that same mood this morning. but now i'm getting depressed feeling again. i have class in like a half hour, the last class i haven't been to yet. i think if i can just get to start doing things i'll feel better.

cheerleading tryouts are tomorrow and thursday and hopefully i'll make it. if i do, i think that would make me very happy. then i want to start doing an abs class and get skinnny and tonight i'm going to see mean girls cause they're showing at this little cafe place. and on thursday night there is a CRU thing, with worship and a speaker and i think that will be good for me. so i hopefully will live. talk to you foolios lata.

homesick

although i'm not really that bad, no tears or anything, when i think about it i do really miss home and my friends a lot. but i try not to think about it too much. today we had some orientation shiznit in the morning and then me and my roomates and some friends ran to walmart in the rain and got completely soaked. but we bought loads of mad food and i am stocked up for atleast 2 weeks. which is good. but so many things remind me of home, it's sad. tonight i talked to laur so that was good, cause i miss that little muffin.

tomorrow classes start, i'm a little scurred to say the least. did that make sense? i'm not sure if i used that in the right context. well anyway i'm damn nervous and i'm having like anxiety attacks. freakin out man. i should depart now and go to bed though cause i am frickin' tired and stuff. although my first class doesn't start till 10 holla. but on tuesday and thursday i have biology at 8 which really sucks. i guess it's good to get up early once in a while though. peace out my fools.

digle

i miss home. nothing is that bad here. i just really miss stuff. and talking to people online from home is killing me.

goodbye

in a few minutes i will be departing for keene state college. i am very sad, a little excited i guess. i feel sick right now though. i hope i didn't forget anything, i can't handle this much packing. my dad looks like a pirate today cause he's wearing cut off pants. i have to finish some last minute stuffing of my bags. i will talk to you mr. blog, when i get to the old NH.

PLEASE WRITE ME:
Sarah Bruno
K.S.C. Mail Stop 7486
Keene State College
229 Main St.
Keene NH 03435

GOODBYE TO YOU.

redrum

tonight (wednesday) i watched the shining with evan. it was indeed scary but not really anymore. it was actually more gross then scary, i do not like seeing bloody things, i just cannot deal with it. and who would've known the shining was such a hard movie to find. i went to four different places for it. gosh. before that i did lots of crazy errands with my mama and daddy was there at some point. i got a credit card now and an ATM and a check book and all this exciting stuff for school. and before that i went out to breakfast at PRD with nat and chadi. and i bought me and suz shirts, which i need to give to her tomorrow which will be the last time i see her, AWWW. sadness. ok i have not packed A SINGLE THING and i already have 59847 things to do tomorrow. i don't know when the hell i'm going to have time for anything. i haven't freaked out yet. i'm just kicked back right now with my quart of peanut butter and chocolate ice cream and the wierd sounds of my mom watcing cold mountain in the other room. that is all i have to say right now. see you my loves.

prophetic dreams by sarah maddox rule

bhahah. hilarious to say the least. fuji's was grand, although i was no so hungry as i wished i was so i couldn't enjoy it as much. but chrissie ate all of hers and half of mine so it was ok. and i ate everyones soups so that made me happy.

today i saw CHADAE TENILLE CHANG-SU. how i love that girl. i'm so glad i remembered her full name. and kai was being a foolish doof. telling her lies about me, which she believe none the less. then me, nat and chadi relived some old cheer memories. before that i went shopping with my mom at chicaboom and spent my gift certificate, then we got lunch from heights and basked at the beach, where i did not get very tan disappointingly. oh digle. my time here in d-town is running out. i cannot handle it.

i love the real mcoy

thanks to dearest chrissie, i have found out who sings all those wondrous songs back in the day. and it's the real mcoy and i love them. and tonight i am going to fugi's with mommyhue, suz, sarah, and chrissie. i'm glad that i am a little hungrier now cause i wasn't in the mood before. i can't believe that after today there are only 2 days till i leave. tomorrow is hump day!!!! holla, that soo rules, the house. whom shall i hump...nat.

there is a problem, not really a problem. but it's something that is bothering me and it's annoying. oh well. hoorah, i shopped again today and spend more gift certificates. oh the joys. goodbye mwa.

"i've always thought of you as a son" "goodbye, son"

ohhh good time good times blubbering with armegeddon. thanks to kendall i have found the word blubbering to be very accurate in describing what i look and sound like while i'm watching the last 15 min of armegeddon. anyway, now that i've done that i don't actually feel any better, but ok. i saw abbie driving today. i am leaving on friday. today is monday. THREE more full days until i leave. oh my gosh, i cannot even handle it. i need to throw up or something. just thinking about it is killing me. last night i saw so many people for the last time in a long time. i saw trevor for the last time in a WHOLE YEAR. and then i saw jo, mark, dan, tom and shelli and other church people for the last time in like months. i really can't describe this feeling. i just feel so sick. and all this leaving business is not the only thing that's bothering me, as usual. i can never only have one problem in my life, it's just like a flood. well my parents just got home from dropping my bro off at camp yesterday, they stayed at a hotel last night in like penn. or something. i guess i'll go mope or something.

quotes!!

"i want to be in jail, it looks like fun" - Suz while watching Chicago

"eating this makes me get goosebumps and then my face starts to sweat, it's weird" - me, while eating a kickin' buffalo strip at friendly's.....suz replies with, "kinda like taking a crap?"

"i wonder if he'll let us have a beer" - Chrissie of a church youth group trip

"i saw natalie's boobs and i have a photographic memory and it keeps playing in my mind" - Leash at cheer practice

"you know what i'm being for halloween? a hisitic jew, and alyssa's being an orthodox jew." - Leash at cheer practice

"look at all this hair i shedded...i shod" - Suz while brushing her hair

bonjour

i have just awoken from a peaceful slumber. so after i posted at like 3 in the morning, i did some other crap and then went to sleep about 5. then i woke up at 8:30 to drive suzanna home and then came back and went back to sleep until now, except i didn't actually mean to sleep this late but i guess i needed it.

but before all this was sunday and the day went like so. i woke up early cause i had to pick up suz for church cause she was stranded at home. we got there and it was a healing service which i wasn't happy about for my last church service but turned out to be not so bad. the mommyhue and daddyhue prayed for chrissie, suz and i and it made me cry and before that when i first got to church i just started crying because i thought about how it was the last time i was gonna be there in a while. but anyway, it was a good prayer. then i peed for the second time that day and suz and i decided to begin keeping track of how many times i went to see if i had an overactive bladder. over 8 times in one day is considered overactive. and i kind of wanted to beat that so with a little help from 5 water bottles and just plain having a weirdo bladder i went a total of TWENTY (20) times yesterday. i am sooo proud. and i called the overactive bladder hotline, except it was like midnight when i did and they were closed but i left a message saying i was evan and left his phone number BHAHA. but back to the day. so after church, suz, jo, trevor, nathan and i all went to the trumbull mall. mark was not allowed cause mama leach said so. at the mall i bought some overalls which was the main reason for going there cause i loved suz and she told me they were only 15 bucks, which turned out to be false, but i couldn't resist so i paid the full $29.50. then i bought some more new perfume. i can't tell laura or chrissie cause they both have it and they'll be mad at me for copying them, but it's sooooo deeelish i couldn't resist. i promise i won't wear it around either of you guys okkk? bahah, then we ate dippin dots and trev tried to steal my keys. and we took pictures together, you know those longs strips with like 4 different poses, they were sooooo cute and i shall bring them to college and cry. then we left the mall and stopped at home to walk oatie, and dropped nathan at church. we headed to evan's house for some get together, praying, singing, churchy type thing. i met lots of new, wondrous and nice people there. and it was tres fun. that's where i began drinking like none other and i peed probably the majority of my 20 pees while i was at evan's. the people that i met there, some of them liked to speak with british accents which i just love so i enjoyed the company of them and their britishness. so it started getting late and people were leaving, and then it was just me, suz, evan, and his friends, carey, melanie, ryan and jordan. and we hung around for quite a while and laughed and finally they had to leave becuase they were going to get in trouble for being soo late. and then it was just me, evan, suz and jordan cause he was sleeping over and his last name is lams which is soo cool, but would be cooler if it had the b. anyway, but suz kept escaping to the car and entertaining herself because it was boring inside hahha. but then she came back when it was just the four of us and we decided to watch a movie. so we watched chicago and then suz was shivering like a silly willy and so we all got inside the pocket. and i found a new love for the pocket, so i really want mrs. mommyhue to make me one cause it is the coolest thing ever. so cool, that evan let me borrow his and i washed it so now it smells so good and not all homeless like it did before. then we sorta fell asleep for like 10 min, but we kept waking up. then suz was like PLEASE CAN WE LEAVE and i was like bahha and just rolled around in the pocket on the couch. but finally i gave in and was like okkkkkk. plus i think it was about time we left anyway cause it was 3 in the morning. so we did and that's what brought us to my posting of about 3:30 in the morn when we arrived home. well toodles folks, cause i got some major packing to do today and i want to see if i can get a little tan posssssibly. GOODBYE AND LOVE TO ALL.

bahh soo tired

hello. i am so tired. it is 3:30 in the morning on monday and i cannot even write now. i'll tell about sunday tomorrow. or shall i say later today.

some people want it all, but i don't want nothing at all, if it ain't you

today (as in saturday) was quite grand. slept late, hung around the house, waited for the storm to pass, went shopping with megan and laura for megan's birthday, got lots of new and exciting things, laughed massive amounts, went to church for dad's concert, left early for chrissie's house, picked up fugi's food, ate and got really fat with sarah and chrissie, laughed even more massive amounts, made gimp bracelets and cd covers, got fatter when i had digested and then ate more fried rice, laughed some more and then i was going to pass out like the guy who dies in seven because he ate so much food he bursted, so i decided it was time to come home. so here i am at the home of me. and i must pee. haha that rhymed. toodles fools mwa.

bad

not a good day or night whatever. it's still friday night in my mind and it wasn't very good. then it turned out ok. my tattoo is itching. i'm going insane stopping myself from itching it. we sang karioke tonight, it was so much fun. if only i could actually sing....oh well. i must go to bed AND CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP. or shall i say hyperventilate myself to sleep. puke myself to sleep. those are all the things i'm doing or feel like doing right now. bleh.

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY MEGAN NICOLE CLARK!!!

aw i miss camp already. today was so sad, not to mention noelle stepped on my tattooed foot and it hurt like a mofo. i cried haha. and everyone was like, freak what's wrong with you, but it hurt so badly. but other then that it was a good day. i got lots of candy and tips. and the girls did soo good at their dance, and they had the cutest little outfits...everyone did. and i got a picture of ryan and he's so stinkin cute. i'm gonna miss everyone, specially sam cause she won't be back next year. but she is a psycho, so i won't miss her that much. aww i'm so sad thinking about this. but tonight is the VBS picnic so that should be fun. anyway, tomorrow i am blowing half my paycheck at havana jeans no one can stop me. byeya.

amish

The butterflies are passive/aggressive
and put their problems on the shelf
but they're beautiful.
And he'll realize the only thing that's real
are the kids that kid themselves, and the demise
of the beautiful. What is beautiful?


i'm going to visit amish tonight. there are so many people i need to hang out with one more time and i only have a week.

MORGAN!!!

hello peoples. this is a shoutout to morgan. cause she talked about me three times so far on her xanga and i've only known her for like a week. she is crazy hyper almost as much as me, but i win cause i'm older. and she wears wife beaters and tu-tus how cool is that??? yeah, that's what i thought PSH!! anyway.

here is how she sounds on a regular basis:
XxBlueyedgrl21xX (10:45:43 PM): HAH JK!
XxBlueyedgrl21xX (10:45:45 PM): never
XxBlueyedgrl21xX (10:45:49 PM): haha
XxBlueyedgrl21xX (10:45:50 PM): oooo
XxBlueyedgrl21xX (10:45:52 PM): yes!!
XxBlueyedgrl21xX (10:45:58 PM): lol(hubba hubba!)
XxBlueyedgrl21xX (10:46:02 PM): lolMUAH AHHAHAH
XxBlueyedgrl21xX (10:46:03 PM): lol
XxBlueyedgrl21xX (10:46:05 PM): ahhhhhhhhhhh
XxBlueyedgrl21xX (10:46:08 PM): +me lieks!
XxBlueyedgrl21xX (10:46:10 PM): alot!
XxBlueyedgrl21xX (10:46:11 PM): haha

see i can't even get a word in edgewise...BAHH. just kidding. i love her ok goodbye

you say i only hear what i want to

i went shopping with my mom tonight at my favorite old place walmart and we bought SO MUCH STUFF for college. it actually made me a little excited. but i also cannot handle this. anxiety AHHH.

not for one second have i understood...

sons of bankers, sons of lawyers,
turn around and say, "good morning" to the night.
For unless they see the sky, but they can't and that is why,
they know not if it's dark out side or light.

I'm wearing this disguise
So everyone can think I'm having fun baby
The world only sees me smilin'
My pillow knows the truth every night
'Cause that's where I hide my sorrow
And they call me happy go lucky
They don't know my heart is dying inside
A smile's a frown turned upside-down
I do my happy go lucky so well
I'm even fooling myself

Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah

I just hate myself
To think of you with someone else
To hear you say goodbye
I love you for who you are
No more, no less
My dreams will never come true without you


I don’t know
what this world's gonna bring
but I know one thing
that this is the life 4 me
BABY CAUSE I'M A THUG!!!!!! bahaha

I GOT A TATTOO!!!

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHA

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great scott

holla, i am watching back to the future....2 i think. cause 3 is the wild wild west one and 1 is when they go in the past. and 2 is the futuristic one, so yeah i'm watching 2. how exciting, oh yes.
-ONLY FOUR MORE DAYS OF CAMP LEFT
-ONLY TEN DAYS BEFORE I LEAVE FOR KEENE STATE COLLEGE!!!!!!
i am quite scurred and worried and frightened and nervous. but hopefully it will be ok. i am sooo unprepared and have soo much packing to do it actually makes me laugh. and i have to read my summer reading book gosh darn it.
-TOMORROW I AM GETTING A TATTOO WITH MY DAD AND SUZANNA. hahahahhaha. i was just gonna go with suz but my dad was like i thought you were going with me wa wa wa haha it made me laugh. so he's gonna come with us. i'm really kinda scared though. i'll be honest.

"but now I know that rose trees never grow in New York city."
one of my new favorite songs, mona lisas and mad hatters, covered by mandy moore. wonderful song, thanks to christina brennan. goodbye y'allies.

arf arf

just got home from nj. twas fun. we saw the village, TOTAL false advertising, anyone who is going expecting a scary movie, you're wasting your money. since i do not like scary movies however i was pleasantly surprise, although a little diappointed i must admit because i was a little excited to be scared. however, there were frightening parts, but in the end they were explained and no longer scurry. anyway, i forgot what else we did there but it was fun. the rain wasn't fun though. but me and laura did borrow chuckie's car and go to the mall haha. i love that chuckie, he is the coolest 60 year old alive. who else would let 2 18 year old's (sort of...laura is yet to be 18) borrow his brand new car to drive around an area they are not familar with in the rain? CHUCKIE!!!! love that man. anyway, tomorrow it's back to work for the last week, i am kind of sad, i will miss it i must admit. and today is rachel's birthday!!! YAY. i think i shall text her a happy birthday message and tonight i am baking her brownies. anyway, i have to go sort laundry for the mother. toodles fools.

ANGER

i am very angry. i saw napoleon dynamite again to see the special new scene and THEY DIDN'T SHOW IT. someone will die for this i tell you. maybe laura ann rosati. HARDY HAR HAR. i am going to cry now at my waste of money. goodbye all you fools at life.

eggs with elsie

i saw princess diaries 2 tonight with laura. it was rather good, funny at times. and the guy, nicholas turned out to be quite a hottie. while andrew on the other hand was hideous and 30. raven was annoying as usual. but my favorite was elsie and her eggs, or brigitte and brigitta. guess you'll all have to see the movie to understand what i'm talking about. then i went to church to pick up my brother and find OH LOOK, someone had already dropped him off at home. what a waste of time. i try and do something nice and it's get ruined. oh well. then me and laur went to prd and ate so much and laughed at a guy who had cheese stuck to his chin. tomorrow we leave for the old nj...night loves.

NEW JERSEY here we come

this weekend we are going to nj for a wine tasting and fun family gathering. laura is joining us as she did at christmas time also because my whole family loves her and thinks we are all related anyway. twill be great amounts of fun, i am excited because it will be like the last time we spend time together before i leave. tonight is movie night at church, i'm not sure if i'm going. i don't really feel like it. tomorrow i am def. seeing napoleon dynamite for the second time so i can see the extra scene at the end before we leave for nj, i am so stinkin excited. well gotta shower. peace.

we ain't got no place to go, let's go to the punk rock show. come and take me by the hand, gonna see a punk rock band.

let's do some living after we die

mrs. fields

i don't understand what is so good about these damn cookies but i can't stop eating them. they're so addicitive and they're not even that good. oh well, i ate 5 today. the storm today was soo scary. we were all inside watching cheaper by the dozen while outside trees were blowing around and people were getting hit by lightening. me and rachel are in a fight with frantz and fernando. rachel just hates fernando cause he's so annoying and is so in love with himself. he's never funny and he's just a big jerk. i personally feel the same, however i am also very annoyed with frantz because he is rude to me and makes fun of me all the time even when i bring nice starbucks food in for them. so we're not speaking to them and we got our whole group against them too haha. it's so great. other people are starting to notice too haha. like karl today was like uhh do you not like fernando, i was like hmm glad you noticed, cause fern sure doesn't. he's too busy trying to be frantz sidekick when he isn't funny at all, and frantz is only funny at very rare occasions. but atleast he's realized we're mad at him and he's being all nice and saying how he's sorry and what did he do wrong and all this crap. we just ignore him. fern on the other hand needs a little slapping around. but other then that today was a great day, not to mention it was pizza day which made me very happy. and my little ren is like my favorite child in my group. i love G-4 they rule!! most of the time, except casey who has a major tude and who is rubbing off a little on mia and lauren (little ren) and therefor excluding the rest of the group because the three of them think they're so much better then the other four, sophia, anna, stephanie and jackie. oh well. that's enough outta me i think.

slow motion for me

i picked up chrissie from work today where i got to meet her hilarious co workers. then we stopped at j.crew so i could spend my gift card, and everything there is so damn expensive i could only buy one shirt and it cost frickin 58 bucks. anywhosie whatsie, then me and the fam ate at kiku sushi for dinner YUMMMM. and then me, suz and mom went college shopping at bed bath and beyond and spent our graduation gift card prezzies. it turned out to be lots of fun. and afterwards we went to starbucks, then i drove suz home and i made her laugh sooo hard with my imitation of wanda. then she tried to steal my joke and use it on jo. PSH. then her and jo had a stupid brother/sister fight and it made me mad, so i left HAHA. not really, love you guys. mwa.

early, biotchs

when i'm bored, i blog. tonight i stayed home for mommy chat, which never even happened, so i was bored a lot which is why there is so much blogging going on tonight. yesss, i just made a new cd and it rules, but not as much as the one i made yesterday. i got 99 problems, but a bitch ain't one. we need to femalize that. I GOT 99 PROBLEMS BUT A DICK AIN'T ONE. that could work...maybe. random people have been leaving me comments. hey wanna leave your name fools. oh and btw that last comment needs to be bleeped out a little. now mind you, i am going to bed early tonight.

"i love feta cheese. i could eat feta cheese on a piece of bark...hehehe (old lady laugh)" - some icky old lady on the food network.

GLOWING EMBERSSSSSS. ok i seriously need a field. really badly. i have been craving to lay in a field recently and listen to wild horses and last summer and cry and think about how sad i am about everything. we got new washer, dryer and fridge today. how exciting that is. almost adds to the depression in a way though. i gotta bounce, it's getting past my bedtime.

wild wild horses, we'll ride them someday

oh how i do wish. i think i'm adding that to my list of things i want when i'm older. on my big mansion farm estate type HUGE place with lots of ACRES, i want to have wild wild horses. yes, wild wild horses, not just wild horses. of course since they're wild i don't want to ride them someday, but wanting to "ride them someday" is kind of just a metaphor for getting what i want in a way. not getting what i want in a selfish, spoiled way, but in like a dream come true way. hmm i hope that is an understandable phrase, well no matter, cause i understand it. I AM SO GROSS, i'm going to take a shower peace out mofos.

high as a kite, i just might stop to check you out

tonight after seeing is there life after highschool starring dan micchicae and other fools with betsy, we hung out with some of her coolio stamford friends. they did bad things that i did not want to be a part of so i layed outside in the road. but then a huge skunk walked by and i jumped and scurried in the car and we drove away. then betsy let me drive, twas fun. then i dropped myself home haha. anyway, gotta bounce. mwa.

barbie pink!!!

what a wonderful color, don't you agree? i got that on my fingernails and figi on my toes, cause me and chrissie got manis and pedis today. before that we went to havana jeans and saw betsy and i really wanted jeans but i didn't have enough money oh well. but i love betsy and her co worker, how kind they were. and tonight me and betsy are going to see dan's show at some arts council place or something i think. and this morn me and suz went to calvary church and we saw dan fox and becca and some other fools. it was so great to hear dan's voice again, it almost teared me up.


Let's do some living after we die
Wild horses, couldn't drag me away
Wild wild horses

last summer

compliments of maddie

You're here by my side, in the summer, our last summer
The world passes by in the summer, our last summer
The light makes shadows fall, surrounded by each other
Alive to watch it all, the view from our last summer
the view from our last summer...

We trace the sun across the sky
And we laugh til we cry
Always so hard to say goodbye
And we all sit round here in our home town
It's so good like this, these are times we'll miss
The memories, I hope will never fade
Glowing embers fly across the sky

i'm gonna cry soon, i have to stop listening to this song.

little black book

although it is technically saturday, it's really still friday. me, sarah and suz got take out from fuji's for the second time this week, monday was with chrissie and sarah when we watched motocrossed. after getting really fat we went to little black book, which turned out to be rather depressing except for the ending. which actually brought tears to my eyes. it was all like stupid kinda and just annoying and then everything just got so horrible for brittany murphy i was like just end the frickin' movie already. and then just when you think it's about to get better, it all goes down the drain again, until the very end, which was fabulous. but i don't think i would recommend that movie to anyone, def. not a keeper. and i walked into part of the village cause it was in the theatre right next door. all i saw was a girl walking through the forest with this stick and i wet myself. well i thought about wetting myself, but then i quickly ran out.

but back to the lesson i learned from little black book. sometimes there are things you just don't need to know. and trying to find them out could just start a hugggeee fuss. such as finding out about all your boyfriend's ex girlfriends, much like the plot of LBB. anyway, because of that movie i now want to stay away from people's pasts. ick, it just leads to crap. speaking of crap so many people are turning into crap these days. hootie for one is the crappiest of them all. only megan would understand this. it saddens me when people go to the dark side. i hope if i start drifting one of my good friends will tie a rope to me and pull me back in. maybe it could be wesley from the princess bride. he's a hottie. bahah no he's not but he is the man. my name is enigo montoya, you killed my father, prepare to die. best line in the whole movie.

i ate a chocolate bar tonight on the way home and it hurt to chew. i'm kinda scurrred about that. not to mention my uncle is my dentist. so at like family gatherings hes like "yo, watch it on the sweets there, honey" well no he's never said that but i can tell he's watching when i'm like shoving my face with peache rings and chocolate bars. anyway, that's enough of that. my poppy is still here. he's leaving tomorrow morning i think. that's sad sorta. but i'll see him next weekend. tomorrow i am going to get a second hole in my ear with christina brennan. she is a silly fool with midget ears. what a mouse. LYLAS. haven't said that in ages.

trevie

this is an entry about trevie. since we are married, he is hurt and angered that i have not mentioned anything about him here in a long while. so now i shall tell about him. trevie is a wonderful boy/man. he is a guy. yeah that's the word. he's not a boy not yet a man. all he needs is time, a moment that is his, while he's in between. anyway, enough quoting of britney.

trevor ********* williams is a wonderful person. he is kind and caring most of the time. sometimes if you ask him enough times he will punch you many times therefore giving you a large bruise or two. he did this to me once, it was so great and lovable of him. i was really excited cause i love getting bruises and he gave me two HUGE ones and i got to tell everyone my husband beat me. and he told me to think about Jesus when he punched me, which was even sweeter then the actual punches. speaking of sweet, trevie is such a sweet boy that i cannot even describe. he buys me all sorts of gifts...well in my imagination he does. but in reality he lays on the couch and calls me to bring him beers, which of course i do without hesitation because my love for my husband trevor, surpasses all others. but other then that he is such a great guy. he gives me all these wonderful hugs that make me feel so happy because he sometimes cracks my back when he does it and although it is very painful since it is from him i love it. and even afterwards when i cannot walk because of the excruciating pain of my broken back i just feel so happy because trevie broke my back not some other fool. but the very very best thing about him would have to be when i run from afar and jump into his arms. it makes me feel like a little girl. me being the goon that i am often feel sad that i am so much taller then all my friends, but when i'm around trevie not only do i feel little i feel fat. which is just so great because i know that he weighs less then me. but it's ok because he's anorexic. oops spilled a secret there, didn't i. anyway, no matter. the real matter is his large enormous grotesque yet of course HOTT muscles. they are so huge sometimes they make me want to vomit with happiness. and of course i do. i love to feel his 8 pack which absolutely disgusts me and i also love to admire his non existent pecs, oh i'm sorry did i just say he doesn't has pecs. my bad. they are huge. not only that but he can bench press about 590835 pounds, which truly is impressive. since his monstrous muscles are so big it makes it very easy for him to lift up my obese body into his massive manly wondrous arms. oh yes, how lovely they are. besides that trevie is just so hott i think he should just go be a model. his FAKE hair, which he refuses to admit is bleached, a fascinating bright blonde color is just amazing. and his beautiful face should just be in a magazine right now. the only thing i can say i dislike about trevie is his hideous white shoes. but i can't even hate them that much because they are so large and you know what that means................................LARGE SOCKS. and how i love socks. speaking of socks one time i was at his house and he gave me such wonderful food and drink. he was so hospitable i cannot even describe. even his grandparents rememebered my name. i really felt like they knew i was his wife, which of course i am. and he is my husband. and we have been married for 3 years. we were married on june 10. i know that you all wish to see this lovely man, well of course you can. please feel free to look at pictures of him which are in the album titled "my husband" at this very website: community.webshots.com/user/sbru8 there are also some lovely ones of us hugging here: community.webshots.com/user/sbru14 under the album more randoms. i hope you have enjoyed this entry and i hope my darling trevie does too. TREVOR I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. i cannot wait to see you one last time before you leave again for the haitian community on june 22. we shall have a grand old time on that day. and do not find any new loves in old haiti, for i will cry my little eyes out. i promise not to tell anyone your middle name. I LOVE YOU, LOVE SARAH OF COURSE. mwa mwa mwa mwa.

all she wants to do is dance

i really have a new love for 13 going on 30. after i watched it with suz on tuesday i have been thinking about it all week and how cute it is. mattie, it's thriller. i just love it so much. it all works out so perfectly, exactly how life never ever does. well anyway, today was the best day at camp ever. it was so relaxing. we only had to walk up the hill twice the whole day. it wasn't very hott at all. i just had so much fun. thank you so much God for giving me such a wonderful day because i love not hating camp. i love having fun. and it was pay day too. and i just love it. and there is this adorable kid jordan who is like 6 and i hope all my kids look like him. well the boys, he is soo cute he could be a child model. and i taught my group ships and sailors and we played it for like 2 hours and all these other groups joined in and i was so happy they liked it because i felt like i finally did something right. i just wish karyn could see that i actually taught the kids a game and they loved it, maybe she would rethink saying i'm a bad counselor. well, she didn't really say that, but i'm sure she thought it. baha. i even thought it of myself. i sucked first session. i was mean and depressed and tired all the time. i'm still tired but i don't take naps anymore ever and i have fun with my kids and my other counselor.

tonight i am going to see little black book with suz and sarah. i hope it's good. it looks grand, i like brittany murphey so i'm sure it will be dandy. i think i heard my phone ring. goodbye foolios.

somebody tell my head to try to tell my heart

today was such a fun day at camp. each day seems to get funner. i think it's cause i turned over a new leaf when second session started. then afterwards, i picked suz up at the buchannans? sorry i can't spell their name and then we went mini golfing with youthgroup. it was rather lame. i had more fun lying on the fake grass talking to suz while waiting for sarah then actually playing golf. and suz beat me, 13-7. we have our own way of keeping score. then we ate at friendly's and i had kickin' buffalo strips which were so yummy. and we laughed a lot and set gimp on fire and then suz spilled her drink and lots of humorous things happened. i love laughing. then we sang dixie chicks in the car. my poppy is here. how i love him. toodles mwa.

ooohh get me away from here i'm dying

i know it's past midnight, therefore it is wednesday. but i had to write just so i could quote my dear old belle and seb. what a grand new song i found from them, i love it. it makes me feel like a litle lamby. i don't know why, someone else needs to hear these songs cause they just make you feel like you're in a field with flowers and breezes and lambs and honey and quilts. i mean maybe it's just me, but i will have to get a second opinion. but without meganeth i would'nt even be writing this, so i love you megan what the heck is your middle name again clark? is it nicole? i feel like it is, i could be wrong. where are you? i miss you. anyway...so does luther. lex...whatever you want to call him. goodbye world, i must go wallow in belle and sebastian and think of luther's reflection at the twin rinks. what a hottie...bah.

god said no

a wondrous wondrous song y'alls. the singer kinda sucks but the words to that song are soo grand i love it. it's a song that def. grows on you. anyway, it's god said no by dan bern. download it now fools. camp was sooo hott today, i almost wanted to go swimming. and tomorrow is wacky wednesday hoorah haha. i am going to wear a du rag for my senior counselor rachel. haha i love my new group a lot. i must go now because i don't feel like writing anything else.

gahhhh

it's the only word that can get even possibly close to anything i ever feel.

die frickin phone die

my idiotic retard of a phone keeps stinkin breaking and i can't handle it anymore. every like 3 days the voice mail breaks and then people can't leave me messages for days at a time and it's really frickin annoying. so anyway i just got that fixed. and if it breaks again in the next 48 hours it's going out the window on the highway. nah, i wouldn't do that to my precious baby phone.

i think otis was a good dog today. we gave him one last chance to prove he could spend the day out of the cage and kitchen without peeing everywhere. and i think that he did ok. i haven't found any pee spots yet. so hopefully it's all good.

camp was rather fun today. in a way. like i always would rather be home or somewhere else, but it's not that bad sometimes. and i wasn't even hungry...ever. it was a first. but that's cause i packed so much food with me.

i need to shower cause i smell and i'm sweaty. so i must depart now. goodbye all you silly silly fools. ooooo barracuda.

ohhh i've got a brand new pair of roller skates

well folks, i am home from the old vt. great bundles of fun that was. sometimes i just need a reminder of why i love my family so much. anyway now i have lots of unpacking to do, but most of it is of new wondrous and exciting things that i got. hoorah. and ahhhh it's frickin august.